changes

so i made some changes to this page. why do i love details soo much?

i am determined to be techno-savvy. if i want to pursue this whole design/art/graphics thing, i have to be self motivated and determined. maybe i could just be an art teacher? that's a solution, and cheap. $200 for the GA certification test for Art Ed. too bad the next test date is July something....and the earliest date for receiving scores is September 22. hm. can't teach art, for now.

but really, i want to be good at layouts, editing photos, coming up with original ideas....creating something....a visual product. i guess i was hoping to magically be good at all of that? with no classes....no technology purchases...? can i start college over?

eesh. today was one where my wheels turned too much and i thought of like 8 ideas for what i could try to do next, but there was no resolve.
goal for this week: i want a complete day to go by where i'm not consumed for at least two hours with job searches on the internet and resume editing. ew.

i need the Lord to help my unbelief, skepticism, and fear. help my faith. God teach me to trust and pray so that you can come through for me. this mess is beautiful to you and already taking shape in your hands. thank you for your steady work. you never slumber. your love doesn't grow tired.