time

how come i get REALLY angry and frustrated when i waste time sitting in traffic...

yet somehow, i am not phased when i waste hours of my day on the internet; mainly facebook, twitter, blogs, and email...?

i get upset that something beyond my control steals my time...but i am perfectly content when i am in control of my time...and how and when i use it waste it.

this is not ok, and i am ashamed at this realization.

what's more shameful is the thought: i fight for my time, but then what do i do with it when i get it?

and how hard am i fighting for my time with my Jesus?!?

DISCUSS!

orderless bits

on my mind today...

it's God's kindness that leads us to repentance.
when left on our own, nine times out of ten, we don't self correct.
it is GOD'S kindness that beckons us to Him. to despise our sin and desire righteousness.
none is worthy of this kindness. not one.
it is HE alone who brings light to darkness, who overcomes evil with His good.


God wants to be ALL of Himself to me. at times, He is dominantly one or two attributes in my finite mind. i am learning lately how narrow my view is of God and the role He wants to take. i see God as teacher. as discipliner. as the one who gives and takes away. as one who withholds or allows pain to force patience and endurance, to always teach a lesson, to show how deceived or selfish i am.

He is SO MUCH MORE. PRAISE HIM. thank you Lord for being so much more. thank you for things about yourself that are at work without my awareness. "You dance over me while I am unaware." thank you that you lead me. you gently restore. you uphold. you go before me and prepare a path.

isaiah 42:16
and I will lead the blind
in a way that they do not know
in paths that they have not known
I will guide them

I will turn darkness before them into light
the rough places into level ground

these are the things I do
and I do not forsake them


philippians 1:6

...He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ.

time for some pics!

here are a few from our new years party at the house.
"it's a celebration..." :)










one of my in focus friends, holley, was given a "celebrity birthday party" last night. many famous figures strolled the red carpet.
eliza was scarlett johanson and joanna was june cleaver!
stephen came as adam lavine from maroon 5.
i came as a "celebrity in disguise", but was soon being called miley. a fabulous event!

this week

so. i'm definitely one of those people who, when given a break, takes a true BREAK.

this week, my car has only moved when i've ventured up to the church a few times to help out with stage set up.
i haven't shopped.
i only cleaned for a new years party.
i've basically nibbled on junk food for days in a row.
i've slept.
i've lounged in pajamas.
i've showered at the end of the afternoon rather than the beginning of the day.
i've got nothing to show for the past week except for a support letter.

i am one of those.
and i am proud of it.
it is now 1:36am and i'm only considering going to bed.
i've played the wii for the past 24 hours with my roomies.

fun times. right?! :)